Infertility

This I feel has been the title of my life for the past 21 months. It has become a part of my family and something I constantly think about. It has caused a lot of confusion and sadness in our lives. I have been thinking about it a lot lately and I know it is something that will always be a part of my life, but it is up to me to make it as positive as I possibly can. So thats what I am going to try and do from now on. I realize how blessed I am, I have an amazing husband that would go to the end of the earth for me and he is an incredible dad I love him dearly. I have a beautiful little girl that I have enjoyed watching learn and grow every day, she is amazing! Our families have been supportive and loving every step of the way. The lord and the gospel have been a constant support in my life and I know how much he loves me and he has carried me. Wonderful friends who know exactly how I am feeling and have been encouraging and helpful. Of course my doctor who I have probably seen more in the past few months then some of my family. He has been wonderful at helping us and wont give up. With all that I have how can I feel sorry for myself anymore. I can't! I am going to be more positive and try harder to strengthen all that I have in my life!

Now thats off my chest I can update you on our progress. Josh finally got to do his part and get tested to check every aspect of his semen. Lucky he only has one small problem the mucus that carries the sperm is too thick, which means it is hard for the sperm to get out and go find their mate. So with my PCOS and thick mucus makes it hard to make a baby. So our next option is IUI which means the doctor takes a sample for Josh, washes it so it is just sperm, puts and tiny tube into my uterus and shoots the sperm up there. Sorry if this is TMI but to me knowledge is power and I have become very open hoping I can help others in some way. So this will the next adventure on our road of infertility. Josh has an amazing sperm count and I have been doing really well on the fertility drugs so with a little extra help we hope the end results will be a little bundle of joy!


P.S. I really have a great doctor, that is really cheap for infertility. I only pay 35 dollars a month which includes MANY visits and ultrasounds. Then for IUI it will cost 150 dollars which after doing research is cheap, I have seen anywhere from 300 to 600 dollars. Anyway, if anyone is dealing with infertility I would highly recommend my doctor, let me know if you want more info :)

Kaydence's First School Pictures

Kaydence has loved going to pre-school this year! She will wake up out of a dead sleep if I tell her she has school today! She goes to school at Roy High in the Royal Tot Pre-school. She has a large class, but has a lot of teachers that she loves! It has been a nice break in the morning for me I can get things done without her everywhere. I can also exercise so much easy because when Kaydence does it with my I just end up laughing so hard I can't breathe! Everything else is going well for our family, nothing new right now we will keep ya posted!

Animal Personality Test

Josh

The Animal In You - You're a Dog!

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Amber

The Animal In You - You're a Bison!

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So I seen this Animal test on Dr. Phil the other day and thought it would be fun to try. Of course I got Bison had to get an animal that looks like me I guess :). Josh was a dog, it is interesting to read through the info and see how much is true. Anyway all is good with us, I will try and update more and include some pictures next time!

Halloween Time

We have had such a fun week! Erin came home to visit with the kids so we had to go get pictures taken! I usually do Kaydences pictures around her birthday every year and have not had a chance to do it yet. So we decided to do a few along with the family. They turned out so cute and the kids did really well suprisingly! Kaydence loves having Maddie here! She was such a big helper trying to change Kalab and playing with him. She will be a good big sister some day. A week goes by too fast, and I know Kaydence will be sad when they leave on Tuesday, but we love it when they visit!

The trying continues.....

So as many of you know, if you don't you will know now, that we have been trying to have another baby for well over a year now. This has been exhausting and frustrating I really don't know how people do this for year after year, I am way too impaitent. I started going to my doctor after we hit the year mark for ultra sounds to time ovulation. This can get time consuming and costly with gas and missed hours at work. I didn't really mind because I really want a baby and I have a great OB, best doctor around seriously! Well this month my folicles just decided to do a whole lot of nothing, just sit there. So after several visits and no progress and the look of my ovaries, he said I had PCOS which is poly cystic ovarian syndrome. Which means that my ovaries have created this beautiful pearl necklace effect and none of them are becoming "ripe" to pop, in other word nobody is going down the slide to meet the swimmers at the park called my uterus. No eggs = no baby creating. So next step is medicince called Metaformin. Since PCOS can cause insulin resistiance, which causes great side effects like weight gain, acne and hair growth, but not on your head. So if any of you are wondering wow, Amber really let herself go, just remeber it is not 100 % my fault, trust me, I hate it! So today I started the medicine and try to continue to be positive, which is very hard. I have felt lost lately and frustrated at something that came so easy the first time is causing me so many problems this time. I know the lord has a plan for us and I need to learn from this situation. I also know how blessed I am to have a wonderful husband who puts up with so much and is always supportive, and I have a beautiful daughter that we both love dearly! I am okay that if I do not have any more children biologically that there are plenty of kids out there that need a loving home, no matter what race or culture they come from. I am also thinking about taking applications for those of you out there who would like to lend me your uterus, just for about nine or ten months. :)

Our growing girl!

Kaydence had her well child check today. She often got this confused and called it her wheel chair check. I had to explain to her that she needed to go to the doctor when she had her birthday every year to make sure she was healthy. She was a whole 39 lbs and 41 1/2 inches tall. This was her first year getting to do the eye test. For the younger kids the have the eye chart with the symbols and pictures. When the nurse asked her what this sign was + she said the Ambulance. The nurse was very suprised she had never heard that one before. Then she was so excited for the doctor to finally come in to see her. He told her how big she was and that he remembered when she was just a little baby and she said ya mama wants another baby. I just laughed at her she doesn't keep anything private sometimes. She was able to get her flu vaccine through a nasal mist. Ya no shots! She thought that was great, and I was very happy to get one as well. The only down fall of her appointment is that the doctor said she has a Still Heart Murmur, which worried me. The doctor explained that it is very normal and he was not worried about it. He also said it was very common at this age. After doing my own research I realized that it was very normal and common, which helped ease my fears. All in all she is healthy and happy and very active little girl.

Happy Birthday Kaydence

Happy Birthday baby girl, we love you so much and can't beleive you are already four! This slide show are pictures through out her life, even a picture of her at the very end with Kyle Korver from the Utah Jazz, she just meet him today and was so excited! Happy Birthday Kaydence!